At first,
the limits of his own solar system seemed hardly boundaries at
all.
The course
of his ship never took him beyond what had long ago seemed virtually
limitless, but by now after all the years of back and forth within
the tight and closely packed precision coordinates that marked
and confined his route, Captain Yusef Mohammed felt himself to
be little more than a futuristic milk man.
He was
pulled by a horse, his ship, the Logaire Yusef, which not only
knew which way to go and every stop on the route, but also was
perfectly capable of dropping off and picking up without any help
from the good Captain, thank you.
He felt
the Logaire Company hadn't gotten around to perceiving just how
unneeded he was. If they did come to that realization, he was
convinced he'd be dismissed immediately.
You can
be certain Logaire knew exactly what they were doing when they
gave the ship his name and put up Yusef Mohammed as Captain of
a top line freighter. More of a mendicant than a hermit, he was
actually the perfect man for the job.
He was
a very kind man. His thoughts were always far from cheating or
taking advantage of his brethren. He acted honorably in every
instance, and viewed each interaction (such as it was) as a chance
to reassert and even pass along, perhaps, that very highest way.
The way to which he believed, all aspired.
His very
kindness came from the fact that he was deeply religious, kneeling
and praying at every proscribed time, facing Mecca, carefully
observing each holiday and fast, particularly Ramadan. He kept
and studied the Koran, the Bible, even the Bhagavada Gita. Reading
and meditating for Yusef Mohammed was only worth while if that
study was about God.
Our Captain
also studied philosophy, and he liked to recall the saying, "Religion
without philosophy is fanaticism, and philosophy without religion
is mental speculation." He'd forgotten where he'd first heard
this, but he liked it very much.
In fact,
this saying had been written over and over again in the log of
the former Captain, a Hindu, called Jai Sri Loka.
Captain
Loka, whose last name, ironically, is Sanskrit for "Planet,"
had attributed the saying to his Guru, in the Lord Caitanya Sampradaya.
Yusef
Mohammed knew the Sampradaya word. It had to do with a living
chain of handed down perfect knowledge.
Captain
Mohammed knew too that one bright and shiny morning in space,
his predecessor had arisen, and then killed himself, by deliberately
stepping naked out into the starry void. Yusef Mohammed had a
very good idea why.
That the
ship had continued without missing a beat ... what to speak of
her own captain, sometimes made Yusef Mohammed wonder about Logaire
and their decision to immediately replace Captain Jai Sri Loka
with another.
The company
had apparently not considered any other course for even a moment.
The Logaire run had to have a living human Captain, and he was
it.
And more
than any other quality, by normal Earth standards, Yusef was very
strange ... he never favored communal pastimes. People, he'd learned,
sought to argue and bicker. People generally, sooner or later,
wanted him to assert the correctness of their path, whatever that
might be, and come away from his own studies.
Yusef
Mohammed subscribed to the saying, "To each his own,"
or as he believed he'd read from Lenin, "To each according
to his needs ... from each according to his ability." He
frowned and carefully closed the book for a moment.
The Captain
was quite alone on the ship, and he loved it that way. He was
aware that Logaire recorded his every move, and he'd grown, over
the years, to eschew modesty. He had to do what he had to do,
and he honestly no longer gave a second thought to the fact that
they were watching.
Even his
most private, whimsical and petty pastimes were up for grabs and
subsequent distribution. Everyone had an agenda.
To him,
the ship was his faithful companion, and there was no problem
with gender ... Logaire Yusef was indeed a girl ... a princess
... a woman ... the queen.
The mundane
cargo of Logaire Yusef was nothing less than thousands of tons
of frozen food, kept at about 20 of the old Fahrenheit degrees.
Vegetables: Broccoli, Corn, Spinach. There were finished foods
for the commissaries; frozen Sarah Lee Cakes, TV Dinners, exotic
vegetable mixes with cream sauce. And there were hundreds of tons
of more basic fare for the chow halls.
In her
current configuration, the Start Run Mode, the huge ship was nearly
a kilometer in length. She became longer and shorter during her
run as she dropped off and picked up modules at the planets along
the Logaire Route. Each double module, easily the size of an old
Earth side airplane hanger, was coupled side by side, and end
to end with adjacent partners. When one was in sun, the other
was in darkness.
The unlit,
darkened modules needed heat. The sunny sides needed cooling.
In adjoining walls, tandem sets of five foot variable pitch tri
bladed propellers (three to a room; front, back and the walls
between) switched and set themselves on or off to move the 15
lbs/sq inch atmospheres back and forth in virtual roaring hurricanes
of man made machine controlled weather systems.
In the
double coupled modules, cartons of frozen turkeys were five stacked
twenty high. Six way ground beef, tons of it. Cloth shrouded haunches,
shoulders, ribs, cases of precut steaks, all piled to the ceilings
... the one limiting factor for the colonists Logaire serviced
was the amount of food in their stores.
The Logaire
Company made certain those provisions were kept at the same and
better levels than they had been upon old Earth. There were sections
of member planets that did nothing but produce these vital supplies.
Fast rockets
with dairy and produce were launched directly to client planets
in the system. Then, when Logaire Yusef came trundling by in space
above, there were not only fully laden modules to drop but empties
to retrieve.
Many of
those empties had in them the crusted remains of the produce rockets.
Nothing was wasted. The big constantly changing ship took it all
in stride.
Those
mid 1940s speculators, the ones who said space travel was impossible
because the 7 mile per second escape velocity was unattainable,
had never the less, invariably gone on to pronounce upon the glories
of weightlessness; "We can't do it, it's impossible! But
if we did, then zero gravity would enable a single person to lift
twenty times his (or her) own weight..."
These
scientist's weightlessness concepts generally failed to account
for the real law of inertia which states: "A body in motion
tends to remain in motion."
Sharp
turns were not in the repertoire of Logaire Yusef. Instead, minute
course changes were implemented by little consecutive puffs along
each articulated module coupling.
Without
the gravitational pull of the consumer delivery planets, what
appeared to the naked eye from the surface below as a great giant
length of sparkling metallic blue bicycle chain overhead, would
never have appeared at all, but gone sailing off into that real
deep space beyond. And that after all, would have bothered Yusef
Mohammed not one iota.
The delivery
dialog between planet and ship was beeps and static, like the
sound of an old modem connecting. All the ship wanted to say and
know was about the drop off and pick up. Need was assessed somewhere
else, calculated along with subsequent route, based on the frequency
and type of returned empty.
This Yusef
considered his interaction. The ship was his intermediary contact
with the rest of the human race.
He turned
in his bunk, away from the mirror kept close on the bulkhead there.
Now he was on his right side, heart side up, no longer with his
face inches from that mirror, where he often practiced making
faces.
He knew
it was crazy, but before the mirror, if he stuck out his tongue,
not only did it seem to blindly sense its own reflected image,
it responded to itself, undulating with strong, indecent ego and
self life. The way it boldly and slowly preened, mindless, slimy
and blind as a slug, was nothing less than obscene.
Over the
course of years of mirror gazing, and tongue play, he'd observed
that if his tongue was out, (as it loved to be) and he caused
it to bend up at the tip, then, in the refracted fluorescent light
from the corridor over his shoulder, saliva in the pocket created
by this bending, actually appeared greenish and blue.
Down on
the planets visited by Logaire Yusef, children fans had a fad
candy which when taken, caused their own tongues to turn green
or blue in the pocket. In a mix which was strangely appropriate,
they called the candy "Loka Blue Gum."
Then,
if you were a kid, and your tongue was blue, you were emulating
the Logaire Space Captain. You'd be silent and studious, yet more
than a little silly. You'd stick out your tongue, for yourself,
and for others, and all would see the color and know ... Someday,
a Logaire Space Captain.
You'd
practice faces and tongue movements in the mirror, just like the
Captain. You'd pray again and again during the day. You'd exercise,
read and walk, and some day, someday, you'd be preparing for that
time when you'd be called upon to become a Logaire Space Captain.
Then one of the big Queen ships would carry your name among the
dependent planets.
You would
be unique as you liked, and all the little children below would
just clap their hands and dress in your ways.
Those
aspiring kids never thought to ask what ever happened to Captains
who came and went before them. Men and women of the great ships,
like Loka, Mohammed, Bellaway or Christian. Perhaps they were
simply promoted. The mystery, if noticed, was no small part of
the attraction.
Another
aspect of the beauty was in the fact of separation. Yusef Mohammed
lived his eccentric and solitary yet very public life. He did
not dream he had so many admirers and emulators. His fans adored
an innocence.
On the
ship, you or I would have perceived only silence. With his back
to space now, Yusef Mohammed could feel the humming of the ship
around him. When a course correction was invoked, he sensed it
with his inner ear. The only thing Yusef found hard to accept,
the only pull of guilt in his ascetic world of personal enjoyment,
was the delivering of dolmus: Pork. Pork Chops. Pork Loins. Pork
Shoulders. The thin wooded wire wrapped long cases of smoked bacon,
about 69 to 73 old Earth pounds to a case. The four / three interlocking
seven stacks stretched all the way to the ceiling.
When Yusef
went touring along his corridor, which was included with every
module, and truncated at each drop off, he dreaded passing and
looking in the pork areas. He could smell it. It was like death.
And he was delivering it.
How could
a good Muslim such as he ascribed to be, reconcile the act of
delivering dolmus?
Jai Sri
Loka, before him, had been a so called Hindu, and a Vegetarian.
It was said Jai Sri had gone mad ... but Yusef Mohammed had begun
to think of the former Captain's suicide as perhaps the only sane
remedy to a situation untenable.
In Yusef's
opinion, the copy cat suicides down on the planets were the crazy
part of the story. Clearly the Captain had been torn between personal
ethics and every day activity. Those down on the planet who chose
to kill themselves "Just like Captain Jai Sri," were
not like Jai Sri at all, but acted on the basis of ego in the
form of perceived unrequited love, or ostracism.
During
the 96 or so Earth minutes in which Logaire Yusef seemed to hang
in the sky above, dropping and picking up links reconfiguring
itself as it went, the denizens below danced and cheered. No planet
in the cultivated system could thrive without this delivery of
shared supplies from the other planets.
Logaire
Yusef, and the ships like her, were the critical, solitary links.
Now Yusef
Mohammed flipped back to his left, facing the mirror. He sensed
a watching. He scrunched his eyes. The cunning tongue appeared,
practically of its own volition, cupping from the bend at the
tip. There was the puddle of blue saliva. Yusef laughed at himself,
and made faces.
Below,
thousands of watching, adoring children popped their Loka Blue
Gum and pretended they were right along with him.
Overhead,
reconfigured now and preparing to leave, Yusef Mohammed considered
what he'd read in the Bhagavada Gita about the three modes of
material energy.
Down on
the planet, the descending sparkling modules cascaded like diamonds
and tears. The great ship Logaire Yusef auto twisted and burped
far up and away as she settled in the correct configuration for
the next stop.
All the
True Science about God. All the Might and Majesty. The tongues,
thousands of them, alive by themselves, and blue. Yusef Mohammed
studied and looked and in turn was watched from below and above
as the ship, in his name, prepared once again to move on and on
in forever.
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